“I can feel where the fish was in the dust. It is cut up into pieces of not-fish now, not-blood on my hands and overalls…If I jump off the porch I will be where the fish was, and it all cut up into not-fish now. I can hear the bed and her face and them and I can feel the floor shake when he walks on it that came and did it” (54).
Faulkner, William. As I Lay Dying: The Corrected Text. First Vintage International Edition. New York: Vintage Books, 1990. Print.
Vardaman is equating the death of his mother with the “not-fish” idea of how his traumatic this idea of “not existing anymore” is.